Lets Start with Allyssa!
We all know that the twins turned one years old. Of course I cried tons before hand so when the day came it all just became a day of smiles, fun, laughter and really just plain old joy! How can I be sad on a day that is really supposed to be happy. Life is about celebrating so I wanted to do just that! No need to reflect on the couple short months they spent in the hospital, I needed to reflect on their first smiles (about 8weeks old - adjusted) their first time sitting up (about 7months old for Allyssa and 5 months old for Austyn) first crawl was about 7months old for Austyn and about 9 months old for Allyssa. Triumphant glory. What a magical thought, what an amazing journey. In so many respects the winter went incredibly slow the changes incredibly challenging (for me starting up college again with preemies and an energetic 3 year old) but the infamous thought that everyone always says 'its not about where you're going its about how you get there'. Its a truthful statement, its why its so popular!
To be so proud, to feel so enriched, to feel so blessed. As much as I value all the good in my life I never take for granted my children. My husband, my ability to be a stay at home mother/wife. Well thats just the nature of the beast. With all good things comes hardships and challenges. I too have mine. Few and far between thankfully enough, but still they are there. I'm ok with that. How fun or interesting would life be if it always just went my way. I know the chaos or the disturbance is always lurking, waiting for me, waiting for us. Metaphorically speaking if I said I'm ok with it rocking my boat just as long as we dont sink, then I'm fine with it!
So I started my fall semester of college and truth be told full time is alot on me thus far. One week in and I already feel the burden of my choice. Gosh cant ever be challenged enough I guess that I must torture myself with even more to accomplish and keep together. First few days were agonizing torture, constant thoughts of when..........when.................when???.............when???...........when will I get a chance to do this dang school work. Don was on doubles and the kids really who can learn about how to identify the criteria in poetry or learn about philosophers and why conservation ethics are important to global preservation. Really? LOL I devised a schedule, something I suppose really needed to be taken on by both Don and I. The first day or so ironing out wrinkles it all seemed like it was doomed to fail, but we have worked it out and my husband has stepped it up. Hello, Honey, where have you been? My husband is back, the man that any woman could wish for! A deep personal desire for change an odd commitment to continue to love me despite all my loudness! I am so lucky. Really I have to call that luck for now as I will always feel that he's something in me that I just dont sometimes. Maybe when I get where I'm going with myself in terms of academics and personal health I can be there with him. He's leading my path, ironically the path in which I showed him to take. HUH! Imagine that!
Anyways back to my lovely children. Allyssa kissed me the other day. blew my freaking socks off. she leaned in and she kissed me! Want to know when ? On my Birthday! Thats right my sweet little angel baby kissed me! I just about melted and Don saw it too. We did the biggest 'awe' you ever so and she was so proud of what she had given me that she did it again....and again........!!!! I always have to BEG for Allyssa kisses and she always just does it because I wont pick her out of the crib till she does. She's stubborn and I'm stubborn so we've been known to play this 'kiss me' game for over an hour. Yes I'm a mean Mommy and I wont let her out of her crib till she gives me a kiss. I demand the love, lmao. Well she just doesnt want to do what I ever want her to do. Defiant little spunky thing. Let me tell she is a rare breed of baby. Light up the world with her smile and melt your heart with her giggle. Mommy wont have to mention her lil dark side when I celebrate the goodness of who she is most of the time these days. Thank You God! Austyn, my little bubba, he is just still so darn happy, so full of life. So full of just everything sweet and special. Old soul, been here done that and much like Whitney knows some spiritual wisdom's. They both teach me and even as my children I look to their hearts and their souls to see the beauty in life, to feel the purity of their hearts and their souls. Wise, been around enough to know a few things about life. They can teach me something for sure! Austyn is learning to walk, finally found interest after all he has been crawling for about 6 -7 months now, lol. He should have been walking a good 3 months ago at least but he just didn't want to. Hey for being 13 months old now, who can complain, I certainly am finally ready for him to walk, I think he needs it for him, so I cant hold him back without encouraging him, so that's what I've been doing. Daddy and I work with him everyday. He likes it. So I predict by about Whitneys birthday he will walk. Allyssa watches him, she tries to join, its funny she giggles and Tries but really is just to wobbly and reminds me of Gumby, lol
He says "momma" all the time when he wants me. He nods his head, he yells back and forth with Daddy and he likes to pull hair and he likes to be silly butt and get chased around the house. Its amusing. Hes a happy person. Oh and his new found passion, slides, he luvs, luvs going down slides at the playground, oh my gosh he tries to climb up them now and everything!
Whitney, she is so ready for school. With all the apprehension about bad behaviors and germs really the choice is just much too clear now that she needs this. She needs to play with kids her age, she needs to be stimulated on different levels. She's at the age where she needs more than what I can give her at home for variety of activities. The twins have taken from her in some regards. Its normal for she had 3 years alone and now a whole year with them, think of how much time has been taken away from her. The years is when she start remembering stuff. Ashamed she really wont remember 3 years of being absolutely spoiled rotten. Twins have been putting new pressures on her that I hope she doesn't hold against them. For instance sleeping in her own bed. Twins sleep all night long alone in their crib, where up till a few weeks we still had not gotten her to stay put in her bed at all. At least now we put her there and she may climb in with us at 4-5 am but its a start. I tell her if the the twins have to sleep alone, so does she, that its not fair! Really it makes me feel guilty. I would have loved to co-slept them. I would have loved to do alot of the things I did with Whitney with them but with 2 I just couldn't. Not practical to co-sleep twins, hhmm, imagine all 5 people in our king bed, hahahahaha. Anyways she's a good big sister, as the twins get older they love to wrestle or play or rough house, I swear she'll hurt them by accident and then cps will be at my door wondering why my twinkies have bruises or something more serious. So comes the constant reminder to take a chill pill. She is learning to write more and she is really really good. I mean I think she writes like a 6 year old. Very proud of her.
Thats all for now, whats to come in September is Whitneys birthday, Don has a small 8 day vacation after this week. We will be making plans to go to Jordon Fall fest, go apple picking, bake some apple pies and then we look forward to the fall foliage trips and nature walks and then prep for Halloween! Thanks for Reading if you made this far!
Monday, September 7, 2009
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Going Green, getting rid of plastic!
So I continue on my journey to go more and more 'GREEN' and we all know that sometimes its just not always an easy thing to do. BUT every bit of what we can do to change how we live and how we treat our planet, our bodies only betters everything about it!
Plastic- My new found hatred toward plastic has continued to brew for a while now. About one year ago I stop purchasing meals that you have to microwave in plastic. I LOVED healthy choice meals, Whitney and I always split them. They are 'healthy' right they HAVE to be good for us! Well its still prepared and frozen food. Not fresh, not without preservatives and foods full of pesticides and who knows what else. This includes all foods that have to be microwaved in plastic, you know the new steam your food in plastic in the microwave?
No, No, No, No...........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How can this be healthy? How can 4 minutes in the microwave brewing your foods in chemicals released throw 'micro' waving be any good for us? That same 4 minutes in a glass ceramic bowl in the microwave makes all the difference. How about steaming them, how about throwing them into a glass saucepan on the stove top? So much better of a choice. A choice that will not leave regret or worry about what it is that is being released in with our foods. I no longer microwave in plastic, I no longer drink from plastic! I have purchased several steel containers. The newest one sports a new clip that I can attach to my purse and I love it. So pretty in Pink too! Its steel container and I simply add tap water to it, so much fresher than bottle water that sits in plastic for months in warehouses and storage trucks in temperatures that reaches over 120 degrees! One less thing to worry about! I feel there is enough worry in life and that if I can protect myself and my family the better. The ever rising cancer rates causes me grave concern. Children and men and woman getting and dying from cancer is scary and a real fact of life. We must do what we can to purchase BPA free plastic containers at the least. I say at the least because as much as we know about plastic there is still plenty we don't. There is more than just BPA in plastic, believe there is plenty of chemicals used in plastic. I for one cant keep track of all the numbers on the bottles and each represents how recyclable the container is. SCARY! So give it a try, try to convert back to older ways of cooking, older ways of warming up your food items, grab for that glass bowl when you do microwave, or that ceramic one works just as well. Take your food out of steam bags and put them in your glass bowl with a little bit of water, at the least you can apply a Saran wrap to the top of the container to hold your own steam (more economical this way too!) at least the plastic is not touching your food, that has to mean something!
Fillmore Glen
We tried to head up North to my Fathers Camp, however the storm hit us at Cato and lets say it was Black, the sky was mean looking. We looked South and it was Sunny, so we turn around and head back toward Home and we decide to go to Moravia and hike at Fillmore Glen! We get there and BAM storm clouds roll in and it starts to sprinkle. Daringly we boldy take the kids out of the car, bound and determined to do something beside drive around we go down toward the Falls let the kids steal a peak, snap a couple of photos and had to leave. Yes of course it rained! So we head out to Denny's for Dinner for a Family Meal. It still ended up being a good day with my family. I love them with all my heart. I'd rather have a boring, dont know what to do day than no day with them at all.Garden Greens
We picked our first meal of green beans the other day from our home grown garden box! How delicious fresh vegetables are from a garden, free of pesticides and all organic soil and fertilized properly. They were so fantastic. The garden is growing well, still no signs of tomato's/cucumbers/eggplant or watermelon but the beans are sprouting off very nicely! Whitney ate all my green beans after hers, lil stinker! I love it she is my veggie baby!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Shattered
Everyone has a life story. Every person is special in that life is full of life lessons and crisis. Each make us walk a path and a road of salvation. A road to self discovery and growth. We ache, cry, scream, panic and become frightened of what lies ahead of every hardship that life brings. No one is exempt from our mental battles of what life brings us. Whats funny is that many life's battles change for everybody. Could you believe that as a dedicated house wife and mother 24/7 that on some given days that my biggest hardship of my day is the mental battle of picking up my husband dirty socks off the floor? How silly for some (we all know you Stay at home Mommas are like 'oh yeah') and how is that pair of socks symbolizes something bigger? A mental road block to monotony and frustration. It all starts the same for everyone, whether its dirty socks or huge crisis like death or hurt and pains of loss, its all pain and it never hurts the less. We all become 'shattered' in our mental state. So perfect our life can seem one day and then you are hit with the reality of life's valleys. Its all symbolic you see?
This was this song that used to play on the radio all the time and its called 'Shattered' by OAR and it really speaks of someones breakup but each of us can take that song and interpret in our sense for what fits for our struggles. Broken down and beat up we all feel like running, hiding and wishing all the pain and hurt away. But we as a humans have the instinct to survive, to fight. To each their own and we all know that some do better than others. Some find depression, alcohol and drugs to see their way through life and these times. It makes it so much easier to deal and to cope with what is often unfair and cruel. But the strong, the faithful they walk the walk, the hold their head up high, they keep moving forward. Realizing that through faith and courage is joy and true happiness. Life gets changed and rearranged and we all have to ride the wave. It will never be easy and it will often feel like there is no end in sight, the light at the end of the tunnel, but those moments of weakness is when we find strength. I do, its then that I stand up and I 'turn my car around' The song it talks about turning your car around, stand up and turn around your thoughts your actions and your life around to the reality of it all and deal and cope and get through. My heart was broke every single day I drove away from my babies last year in Nicu and in my dark moments of weakness I found my strength. I found it just so special and ironic that every time I drove away from the NICU I would hear that song playing in the radio. I knew I was shattered and broken.....but I knew that I always turned my thoughts around. Look to what I had, look to what I will get through, what we will all get through.
Its my message today, to hold your head up high, think positive, give yourself credit for your misfortune but don't never give up. Try to self discover what is that is have to get through and keep trying to find the other side. Seek help and support no matter who will give and you may find that complete strangers can give you more than what a loved one can. It does not matter, love is love and support is support.
Here is the song and you can hear and make this song your very own interpretation for what fitting for you. If anyone ever needs me let me know, I can offer you an open heart and a willing ear.
http://www.mtv.com/videos/oar/254581/shattered.jhtml
This was this song that used to play on the radio all the time and its called 'Shattered' by OAR and it really speaks of someones breakup but each of us can take that song and interpret in our sense for what fits for our struggles. Broken down and beat up we all feel like running, hiding and wishing all the pain and hurt away. But we as a humans have the instinct to survive, to fight. To each their own and we all know that some do better than others. Some find depression, alcohol and drugs to see their way through life and these times. It makes it so much easier to deal and to cope with what is often unfair and cruel. But the strong, the faithful they walk the walk, the hold their head up high, they keep moving forward. Realizing that through faith and courage is joy and true happiness. Life gets changed and rearranged and we all have to ride the wave. It will never be easy and it will often feel like there is no end in sight, the light at the end of the tunnel, but those moments of weakness is when we find strength. I do, its then that I stand up and I 'turn my car around' The song it talks about turning your car around, stand up and turn around your thoughts your actions and your life around to the reality of it all and deal and cope and get through. My heart was broke every single day I drove away from my babies last year in Nicu and in my dark moments of weakness I found my strength. I found it just so special and ironic that every time I drove away from the NICU I would hear that song playing in the radio. I knew I was shattered and broken.....but I knew that I always turned my thoughts around. Look to what I had, look to what I will get through, what we will all get through.
Its my message today, to hold your head up high, think positive, give yourself credit for your misfortune but don't never give up. Try to self discover what is that is have to get through and keep trying to find the other side. Seek help and support no matter who will give and you may find that complete strangers can give you more than what a loved one can. It does not matter, love is love and support is support.
Here is the song and you can hear and make this song your very own interpretation for what fitting for you. If anyone ever needs me let me know, I can offer you an open heart and a willing ear.
http://www.mtv.com/videos/oar/254581/shattered.jhtml
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Lions and Tigers and Bears Oh My!
I love how he holds on to her like a protector! 
I ventured off to the zoo with the peeps and Aunt Carol, Brenda and little cousin Stephen and they all loved it. The twins got individualized attention with special carrying around by Mommy and their Aunties. Allyssa just lit up with Aunt Brenda. Aunt Brenda is so strong to hold back the happy kicks and bouncing around that Allyssa did in her arms as we traveled hours through the zoo. Honestly I have been to the park so many times that I lose my spark of interest for it, but the Aunts kept that spirit alive for the kiddos. I love to get to my most favorite of the animals and keep the trips to the zoo a speedy one, I dont stop for long and keep forging forward. The attention they took to reading so much information to Whitney and cousin Stephen was special. They love that and I realize I really need to recognize that my young baby Whitney is growing up and needs to learn more of this stuff. So it was an eye opener for me to realize how I need to change some of our trips out and make them more educational and not just 'fun' for her! Ran into Peyton and got some family photos. It was such a beautiful and sunny day. After keeping myself cooped in the house for days I really needed the sunshine, the smiles and it was the boost I needed to get spirit full of life and love. Austyn and Allyssa came home and enjoyed their first McDonald French Fry, not a common around here, I don't care for fried foods for the young ones too much, once in a while is fine so they really enjoyed it! Lots of content children tonight playing together and loving the attention to another! Hope you Enjoyed the pics !
I ventured off to the zoo with the peeps and Aunt Carol, Brenda and little cousin Stephen and they all loved it. The twins got individualized attention with special carrying around by Mommy and their Aunties. Allyssa just lit up with Aunt Brenda. Aunt Brenda is so strong to hold back the happy kicks and bouncing around that Allyssa did in her arms as we traveled hours through the zoo. Honestly I have been to the park so many times that I lose my spark of interest for it, but the Aunts kept that spirit alive for the kiddos. I love to get to my most favorite of the animals and keep the trips to the zoo a speedy one, I dont stop for long and keep forging forward. The attention they took to reading so much information to Whitney and cousin Stephen was special. They love that and I realize I really need to recognize that my young baby Whitney is growing up and needs to learn more of this stuff. So it was an eye opener for me to realize how I need to change some of our trips out and make them more educational and not just 'fun' for her! Ran into Peyton and got some family photos. It was such a beautiful and sunny day. After keeping myself cooped in the house for days I really needed the sunshine, the smiles and it was the boost I needed to get spirit full of life and love. Austyn and Allyssa came home and enjoyed their first McDonald French Fry, not a common around here, I don't care for fried foods for the young ones too much, once in a while is fine so they really enjoyed it! Lots of content children tonight playing together and loving the attention to another! Hope you Enjoyed the pics !
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Random Silly Thoughts
If my husband were home I'd have someone to share these thoughts with, why let them mingle and fizzle in my own brain, might as well share, especially if daddy reads these
- how is that Allyssa is just that smart to know that she can look at the spoon when I feed to her to see if I'm tricking her with the food? I so creatively starting aiming the food high when I try to spoon her anything that is pureed and she now realizes I trick much to much this way and will refuse to open up. Man she buttons up tight! She gets so mad at me and man feeding her is so frustrating! Chill out Ally, Pears and Squash is will help you grow not hurt you, lol
- Why is that both my babies look like they have been put in a war zone? I've seen babies with bruises and I always thought 'huh' or 'why?' and just thought there is something wrong if babies have bruises. Now on the other side of the coin I see just how many times they bump into chairs, toys, hide dive, fall over and how much big sissy gets pushing, shoving (by play not always on purpose!!!) and it sucks because babies should never bruise they are much too cute for bruises and play wound marks, lol. Of course totally guilty of making my child find their way out of situation on most occasions, hey if you want to get caught up in the chair, let me coach you to see your way out. Bang, bang, boing.
- how many times does an almost 4 year old have to ask for a drink. Mom, Mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, drink, drink, drink, drink, drink. Holey friggin cow Whitney Yes I heard you! GAH and the other classic is snack, drink, snack, eat, snack, dinner, eat, snack, drink.....all day long, sometimes its the only thing she'll say to me on some days. Very smart girl, I mean very smart, talking sentences extremely early and so she knows how talk to in sentence. For mommies that have kids that will be Toddlers soon and chose to let them watch tv, be warned shows like Max and Ruby are toxic. Max doesn't talk he does one word sentences and commands so Whitney got the whole barking at mommy and daddy with 'drink, drink' Um Hello, I don't think so little girl, speak normal! I love her she is too darn brilliant for that!
Thinking I have to bathe 3 kiddos tonight. Once this week I did all 3, wow like packing sardines into bathtubs, rolling over each other, it was worse than other time I've done it because they are so big! Then one at a time, its all time consuming and tiring.
Highlight of Just the Connie Aspect of today................going to spend time alone watching some favorite TV shows tonight. Rescue me, BB11 and Americas got talent. Wahoo *sarcasm* I have no charm for today, sorry to disappoint. I am on day 3 of keeping myself trapped inside. I have no desire to move outside my house, why? I don't know, hormonal I guess, I have a visitor, she is a nasty thing. which why are you here anyways? all these years you can come and do your job to give me babies and now you come for 8 months straight, just go away, you're not welcome here!
Wow, what random brain garbage.
- how is that Allyssa is just that smart to know that she can look at the spoon when I feed to her to see if I'm tricking her with the food? I so creatively starting aiming the food high when I try to spoon her anything that is pureed and she now realizes I trick much to much this way and will refuse to open up. Man she buttons up tight! She gets so mad at me and man feeding her is so frustrating! Chill out Ally, Pears and Squash is will help you grow not hurt you, lol
- Why is that both my babies look like they have been put in a war zone? I've seen babies with bruises and I always thought 'huh' or 'why?' and just thought there is something wrong if babies have bruises. Now on the other side of the coin I see just how many times they bump into chairs, toys, hide dive, fall over and how much big sissy gets pushing, shoving (by play not always on purpose!!!) and it sucks because babies should never bruise they are much too cute for bruises and play wound marks, lol. Of course totally guilty of making my child find their way out of situation on most occasions, hey if you want to get caught up in the chair, let me coach you to see your way out. Bang, bang, boing.
- how many times does an almost 4 year old have to ask for a drink. Mom, Mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, drink, drink, drink, drink, drink. Holey friggin cow Whitney Yes I heard you! GAH and the other classic is snack, drink, snack, eat, snack, dinner, eat, snack, drink.....all day long, sometimes its the only thing she'll say to me on some days. Very smart girl, I mean very smart, talking sentences extremely early and so she knows how talk to in sentence. For mommies that have kids that will be Toddlers soon and chose to let them watch tv, be warned shows like Max and Ruby are toxic. Max doesn't talk he does one word sentences and commands so Whitney got the whole barking at mommy and daddy with 'drink, drink' Um Hello, I don't think so little girl, speak normal! I love her she is too darn brilliant for that!
Thinking I have to bathe 3 kiddos tonight. Once this week I did all 3, wow like packing sardines into bathtubs, rolling over each other, it was worse than other time I've done it because they are so big! Then one at a time, its all time consuming and tiring.
Highlight of Just the Connie Aspect of today................going to spend time alone watching some favorite TV shows tonight. Rescue me, BB11 and Americas got talent. Wahoo *sarcasm* I have no charm for today, sorry to disappoint. I am on day 3 of keeping myself trapped inside. I have no desire to move outside my house, why? I don't know, hormonal I guess, I have a visitor, she is a nasty thing. which why are you here anyways? all these years you can come and do your job to give me babies and now you come for 8 months straight, just go away, you're not welcome here!
Wow, what random brain garbage.
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